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Hi everyone who still bothers to come here. I am safe and sound in taiwan. Its like being in bible school all over again. Just that now work is involved. Its like a never ending church camp. I feel safe, protected, there is chapel everyday and weekends have church. I feel as though i was leading my old life again. The life before Uni and China. I really cannot imagine what my life would be when I leave ORTV. Its not that Im crazy abt this plc or what, Im fine I guess. Evryone out of tw is telling me that tw is awesome it rocks shopping is good bla bla, well yeah it is whatever. But you know my personality is not going out there to do all those stuff but its being w my friends and whatever that comes along after that just makes sense no matter what we do or where we go. I love my housemates, i love the people i work with, its just that sometimes i get so stressed about how im not good enough. all the othyer interns are asians who study in america or just americans.I mean i feel that my english is darn good esp when i write essays but everyone here just makes me feel so inferior abt my writing skills. I want to go back to singapore so badly. I love my friends here, they love me too obviously. But i just want my comfort zone back. Im not ready for all these. After this summer i think im just gna work really hard in my studies cuz i realize i hate work. this is my first official 'work' in my life. I have never ever worked worked in my life so i have decided i hate it. HAHA. Another thing. Although Im really distracted by so much here. I find myself missing G alot. Is that weird or what. We started out as 'siblings' where he cares alot for me and i just do alot for him. when i call him frm tw, he seems like he needs me not at that moment but mayb just after that, like he says ok call me tmr, im bz now w my friend or i wna talk to my mama or WHATEVER. and i feel weird. Like in tw i tell everyone he is my bf but we are just in a complicated stage now. ya i guess we are. even when my TL friends ask me abt him i tell them honestly that i dno whats up btwn us. I guess i dunt love like him yet, its just a huge dependency like the one i used to have on derek. weird much. i want to go hooooooome. i miss cal and ryl so much. i have not seen cal in half a year and i wont see her for another half. and if i really decide to go travel in winter i wont see her for like 1.5 years i just want to die. I feel so bad i havent been updating them as much as best friends shld and as much as i want to. ah crap. oh yeah i love tw cuz i have so much internet freedom now. take that china. |
