I need to learn how to live without you. One day seems like a week, a year even if I cant see your face. I need to learn how to stop hurting myself. We end up hurting each other. Its just who starts the ball rolling. I have given my soul to loud music and techno beats. I become unrecognizable when Im surrounded by tens of hot bodies gyrating to the same music but with a different rhythm within each of our hearts. My heart beats for you, but when I see the person you become under the lights, my head spins out of control and my body takes on another man's rhythm. I do not want to change. I hate change. But why is it that everyone but me sees the change in me already. I do not regret having met you. But I regret letting you have this much control over me. How can I be so cheap.