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I know Im running away. From what, Im not entirely sure yet. I feel like crying at different times of the day. I just hole myself up at home, refusing to go anywhere despite being so free. Even free shopping w my mum which I know will see me with alot of shoes and makeup if Im nice enough not to fight w her does not entice me anymore. My mum says Im selfish for not even wanting to go shopping w her. Im too tired to even reply her. I know Im currently being really selfish by not wanting to meet the pple who desperately want to meet me, calling my mobile and texting me endlessly. Jo says he gets that everyone gets their 'social funks' but comg frm me he says its hard to believe. I know. Right. I want to be a part of my friends' lives here but I know Im so fleeting that I cant bring myself to ask them to trust me with their secrets. This is what I really hate abt these vacation breaks despite this being my first. I settle, my friends settle w me being a part of them, and then its time for me to leave. It breaks my heart, which is why I choose to separate myself away from everyth that is happy early. I told xiang shenna and eliza that day that I dno how to respond to negative feelings like sadness, I think I really dno how to. Either that or Im just doing everyth wrongly. I am not going to come back. Because life here represents everyth. My comfort, my friends, my securities. And Im not prepared to leave it again. |
